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Name: Daniboo!
Birthday: 11/22/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: ...Writing and drawing! Also, I want to be a forensic pathologist when I grow up... Don't look at me in that tone of voice!
Expertise: I am a good artist and writer, but I do not claim brilliancy. I do claim genius, however, in the area of metaphorical symbolism. But who doesn't? *falsetto fake laugh*
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/10/2004
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| Uuuuuuuuuuugh. So what has happened in my life?
Well I got oral surgery. Basically one of my gums was made of fail, so they cut a slice out of my mouth to sew it over the failgum and be all like "lol fixed!" Except yesterday I was drinking water very vigorously (seriously, I just... twisted my lip or something and then there was PAIN) and pulled out the barrier. Which was a little thing that just sort of molded around the whole thing, so it pulled out the stitches. And I'm pretty sure it pulled out the graft.
If they try and make me go in again that Thursday I'm slapping a bitch, cuz no fuckin' way, not 10 days before another surgery. But I'm calling them up going "so, uh. what do I do?"
Okay after that. I basically burst into tears in front of mom. Can I say I think this made her happy? She's been bothering me a LOT about depression, and I'm not. Until today. Today I feel depressed. She GETS TO COMFORT ME. She's been taking it all way harder than me and while I'm there for her she doesn't get to be there for me. My grieving style is to leave the fucking room to be alone. That's it, I'm sorry, it's how I do shit. I hate crying in front of other people. She just wants us to cry on each other's shoulders. So when I try and joke about something or express happiness she's had the unfortunate tendency lately to point out all the shit I should be upset about, like that I could fail the CBEST or the surgery or medical school or mouth or Gypsy. She got to hug me. My crying made her day. (which is just an opinion but I think it's a valid one.)
Speaking of Gypsy. She was acting really weird... even snapping at JC. Gypsy doesn't snap at anything. The cats rule over her; if Davie goes to eat her food she just stands there like "Ummmm heeeeey." And she's been coughing a lot. I think I mentioned it, but her lung cancer seems to be getting worse because she's hacking CONSTANTLY.
So today I noticed that she is now coughing up blood.
Mom said we were going to put her down.
At least I've been expecting this, but I've known her since I was ten. This is shitty. Make it stop.
I'm trying to force myself to do shit, to eat, but all I wanna do is sit and stare at the wall. Like, I talk with friends online but when I'm not talking with them, I don't wanna talk with anyone. Today I ate half a bowl of chili and like half a banana. I just don't wanna deal with anything. Or anybody else's problems. If there's any bitching I actually do start playing misery dick with people and it SUCKS because I don't do that, it's stupid, everybody deserves to have their problems listened to. Even if it stresses me out or seems really small compared to whatever I face.
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| Damn, I'm full of all sorts of 'pissing people off.'
But first: http://rigel.mirror.waffleimages.com/files/8d/8dc9ac5fa61e1d1e3f7413b347c5f77dd43d0e89.jpg
Okay, anyway, this popped up when I tried to log onto an art site: "This account has been suspended until 2009-12-01 @ 7:49 PM for the following reason: It's not cool to lie about your age and then gloat about it. We're taking our two years back."
(It's an 18+ art site.) So the day after I turned 22 I wrote a journal going "lololol I just turned 18 suck it monkeys i'm such a reeeebeeeel" after which I added "jk guys not really" cuz I was parody'ing all those people who do that, because it's stupid. Because they get banned for a bit by being jackasses. 'twas a joke.
Anyway, I'm on good terms with a few mods and went "So although it did admittedly make me lol that you banned me, I was seriously kidding. I can scan my ID to prove it." and they were like "yeaaaaaaaaaaah we see that now, give us a minute." So all turned out well.
As for the other site where there was a gossipy girl turning on me, it all turned out well. I'm tactful online, so I'm back on the site and if I ever leave again, this time I tell NO-ONE. Because the times I leave it's just cuz nobody's paying attention to me, and then NOBODY WILL KNOW. But this time around it was just easier to come back.
Okay, off to do Spanish final and email and fffffffff so much CRAP to get done. >.<
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| omg interbutts drama? I thought that didn't really exist.
I told two people that a forum had been ignoring me and I just left. Cuz if I feel ignored, I do something about it in the sense that I'm like "MEH" cuz that's how I deal with peer pressure (I'm awesome). Well one of those people was Jenna who would have no reason to say anything because she doesn't care enough which is why I love her.
Through deductive reasoning I've determined that the other person I told whined to the owner of the forum and named names, aka me, and thus the message on my FRONT PAGE.
On other pages she's been saying she's hearing rumors that people 'hated the site' which I never said, and was quick to clarify, and it's not like I went around crying to everybody with an AIM sn. It's been 6 days and I still haven't had a response to posts, so whatever. This is how much I'm planning on sticking around. And I don't bother people for RP posts, that's not my style anymore--if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be.
So, lesson learned with this person. If I'm complaining about something, don't tell the person I'm complaining about. Since I can't trust her to do that, I'm just going to be extra-careful of what I say to her, since it will end up being gossiped about. And not in that "A friend told me..." kinda way.
I feel bad for her, though. She keeps crying that people leave her for drama-related reasons that she had nothing to do with. If she's willing to cry to someone else about something so small... I know it's at least partially her fault. I still like her otherwise, but I can't let myself be drawn into that. So good thing this happened.
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| Just got kicked off my first site! O.O Sort of!
Got a message that was like "So... you joined us and then left? I can delete you..."
Um? I joined, posted, kept checking for replies and... yeah, a few days is my limit on that? I get bored and I leave without a bitchfit, no you're welcome. I told them that, along with the 'life has been hectic, so though I checked for replies and got none... I didn't have time to hang out in the chatroom... so...' That was sort of my "delete me if you want, but unless people figure out that they actually want to talk with me, I'm not coming back."
She actually 'heard a rumor' about it. Babe, I was getting so little acknowledgment I had no idea I WARRANTED a rumor.
This is me not really caring, but she could have left something so stupid off my front page on my other gallery. There are PM's for a reason.
Kinda laughing at it all, the start to my vacay. WHOOO THANKSGIVING. Mom made me make pie crusts and they are hella gimpy.
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| They don't pay me enough for this shit.
Okay, I got to look after a bunch of kids, but they're stupid little people. I had to count off 6 groups and BOTH TIMES it was like they didn't care, cuz I ended up with at least 7 if not 9 and there are only 6 groups and I had to turn away kids that would ACTUALLY do their work. Wtf?
Then Yang sent me to go get creek water so we could grow Protozoans and the fence locked on my way back, so I had to hop the fence, which on a torn toenail sucks ass, and on my hurty foot made the trek to the ag building to get hay. Because my life is a WHIRLWIND ADVENTURE.
I did almost fall into the creek.
ALSO IT WAS RAINING AND THAT SUCKED.
I gotta go eat something, Mom cooked food that smells delicious but took it to her potluck so now I'm hungry and w/o food. And today is when Jenna gets into town! She's gonna have an attack when she sees how messy the house is. Hahahaha.
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